Visiting Holland

If I knew What I know now, four years ago, Maybe I would have accepted the whole special needs situation faster? For sure yes. I want to go back exactly 4 years ago and tell my depressed self, the one who couldn’t get out of bed, the one who wanted to just die, the one who believed she cannot laugh again or be happy again, the one who thought she cannot watch a movie or eat a meal and enjoy. This lower than low self. This self that wanted to give up on life and functioned on zombie mode. The one who wanted the day to be over just to put her head on the pillow to cry herself to sleep.